December brings the highest number of highs and lows for a month in the year, and it can switch from one to the other in a fraction of a heartbeat. All the rituals and memories of past years swirl round and within the new ones I try to make. But we are now a family of four with an empty chair in our home and that won't change.

This Romeo is bleeding but you can't see his blood. It's been raining since you left me, now I'm drowning in the flood. Now I can't sing a love song like the way it's meant to be.

How many special people change, how many lives are living strange, where were you while we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall, faster than a cannon ball, where were you when we were getting high?

Some day you will find me caught beneath the landslide in a champagne supernova in the sky.

I wish that heaven had visiting hours.

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence, my father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me, and then spin me around 'til I fell asleep. Then up the stairs he would carry me and I knew for sure that I was loved.

We were made for each other, out here forever. I know we were and all I ever wanted was for you to know everything I do, I give my heart and soul.

I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me. I miss you.

As around the sun the earth knows she's revolving, and the rosebuds know to bloom in early May. Just as hate knows love's the cure, you can rest your mind assure that I'll be loving you always.

There are times when I look above and beyond; there are times when I feel your love around me.

I'll never forget my baby; I'll never forget you

Here we are on earth together, it's you and I. God has made us fall in love, it's true, I've really found someone like you.

How you feeling, sweetheart? Are you moving on? Are you sleeping okay? Or do the nights go on and on?

I hope you're eating well. I hope you're staying strong

"When I'm feeling weak and my pain walks down a one-way street

I look above, and I know I'll always be blessed with love..."

"I long to tell you that I'm always thinking of you. I'm always thinking of you but my words just blow away. Just blow away..."